people change

2007-01-11T00:15:00.000+08:00

11th January 2006

bismillah. just came back from 5n2'06 chalet at costa sands resort. overall, it was ok. the best, the luge ride. love it!once is really not enough. but too bad. not enough time. cramped wid plans. skyrider boring. thrilling at first though. den first time played beach volleyball. fun also. first night slept at 0630. lights out at 3. laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh. haiz... glyn keep giggling for no reason. whole body and the bed shaking. sheri lying next to him was forced to laugh. yazid's laughter made everyone in the room laugh. ben aw telling us wadever he just read from his men's health magazine. mystery fart smell in the room. alot more la.

bbq on second night. went to vivomart wid yazid, ah ling, mad, yy. great work by the cook team. firestarter, hamdi and ben aw. otah and prata man, hamdi. bbq wings, yazid. crabsticks, hotdogs and fish, joel. strong wind, glyn.

dats all abt chalet dat i can rmb. so, dat'll be all for now. and im missing it now. feels abit awkward without them. 3 years and one memorable night together. the infamous 5n2'06 will always be in mind. done!

2007-01-02T22:14:00.001+08:00

2nd December 2006

bismillah. tmr going back to school. haha. no offend. actually, is to give helmi the sec5 textbooks. but i do miss school, alot. the teachers. the activities. the lessons. canteen, court, bench, 3rd level toilets, and most of all, friends. good ones, bad ones. ok im fat now. think overweight ar. haha.

i celebrated hari raya haji and new year at m'sia. quite fun la. at kampung wad. first time i ride motorcycle at 65km/h. cos at main road so i used gear 4. heh. den learn to drive as well. only forward and reverse for practical. haha. nvm. wait till im 18. den can drive legally.

fireworks everywhere. still, think the kampung glam ones the best. den alot of mat rempit there. illegal race la. quite scary also. skali clash wid us, how? accident la. ish..

den went to the ghouls exhibition, mistik. like wasted rm8. of all the exhibits, only 3 like real. others like not. boring... done!

[_people change. dats part of growing up. but dat could also be the reason for breaking up_]

2006-12-31T01:25:00.000+08:00

31st December 2006

bismillah. first, selamat hari raya haji. 2nd, my mum made plans to go m'sia today which means i cant go to the countdown party. lastly, my hair is so short now. like im going back to sch. haha. ok la.

last time, merry christmas and a happy new year. now, hari raya haji and a happy new year. haha. enjoy. done!

[_sometimes, you cant get the things you really want. dats called sacrifice. nobody likes it_]

2006-12-30T02:18:00.000+08:00

30th December 2006

bismillah. HELLO! hahahah. believe it anot. i've updated. yes. i've updated. no. u're not dreaming. i've updated. haha. okok.

just gonna update abt the sentosa outing. went to sentosa on wed. wid the soccer mates. except for faiz and din. went straight to siloso beach. alot of grounds covered cos of the countdown party prep. so headed down to pahlawan. me and luqman first to get wet. haha. den rain a while. spend the time to rest, eat. den after like 30mins when rain stops, went back to water.

play play play play play. den the sea level rised. i jumped and landed on lots of stones. skin torn. but dat one ok. moments later, azli came to me saying dat his arm suddenly felt painful. den we saw a jellyfish at the shore. so.. ya. rashes. arif said rinse wid urine. haha. but azli said it felt better after dat. so, its proven dat urine cure rashes. haha. alot of mats and minahs dat day ar.

abt 5, when to shower. the washroom at pahlawan much better den at siloso ar. walked to vivo. arif very dizzy dat time. so, quickly led him to long john. after dat, me, man, zal went to the 3rd level and played wid the water grounds. haha. so great. cooling.

ok. i really wanted to go to the countdown party dis year. as i've nvr gone to those event before. hope there're frens to go wid. ok. i'll just write till here. done!

[_really miss the times. secondary school life would be the most memorable part of my life_]

2006-10-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

27th October 2006

bismillah. long time no update. very very busy. haiz.. hahaha. actually, shishidah la. haha. keep asking me to update. also nth much to blog. but nvm.

played bowling today wid faiz, mamat and azli. den suddenly mamat's mum say got open hse today. so, after dat, we went to mamat's hse la. came later wid aizat. others already there. den aishah and fazee came. so, ate wid them la. i served them.. alot. haha. aizat like struggling to finish. blah3. walked to jbs. on the way, i realised my hp not wid me. den azli said he left my hp at mamat's hse. haiz..

den at jbs, planned to go where next. decided on vivo city. took bus. eh. long story ar. changed plan. played lan games at chevron instead. till 9.30. very fun! long time nvr play wad. like 2 yrs already. den walked to imm. bought snacks. walked home. reached home, got guests. haiz.. tired already. and they just left. so, im now free. ok. some flashback.

hari raya at kampung was fun. got ppl play firecrackers. and got some played fireworks. no joke. i dunno where they get dat bloody thing. but there were nice. somewhad like the ones at kampung glam. nice!

den i ride motorcycle. without license la. at there can. but not at main road la. skali accident. haha. actually not la. just fell. like bicycle lydat. funny. but painful la. haiz..

ok. o's starting in abt one week. think gonna start tmr. study study study. intensive one. yea.

[_ignore wad ppl say abt you. its about how much you are willing to contribute_]

2006-10-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

20th October 2006

bismillah. last few days of fasting already. and den.. happy deepavali. haha. hari raya coming also. also like the hari raya mood not there. only one day holiday. den o's ard the corner. haiz..

ok den. abt today. went to bugis. i didnt know they wanted to go bugis sia. thought going geylang. den reached bugis already, helmi and luqman went out of the train when the door was abt to close. still got time la. dunno why they say "doors closing" when it closed abt 10 secs later. weird. met mamat and arif at bugis ctr station. but only me, luqman and helmi bought stuff. got 2 tops, 1 jeans. i only got 1 jeans sia. den now got 2 la. others like cargo pants. after dat went bazaar. the suria raya carnival. spent $80 altogether today.

went home straight since carrying alot of things. reached home, helped my mum mopped the floor while she bake cakes. blah3. break fast. online and... yay! haha. got la.

ohh. recall abt the other day. it was very long since i was screened by the police. alah.. nth la. cos we played soccer at night and ended after 11. rest under a void deck. den the police came. blah3.

on wed, bowl wid helmi and luqman. fun la. slack at void deck. helmi slept. den me and luqman met alot of weird ppl. funny la. haha.

thursday was o's practical. cock up la. was testing for the gas. repeat to confirm. and time's up. hand in answer scripts. washed equipments. and i rmb i left out 3 ques. bodoh. hmm. wadever la. done.

[_why cant a secret be kept just between 2 parties?_]

2006-10-14T19:15:00.000+08:00

14th October 2006

bismillah. today got the s'pore idols, hady and taufik at jurong point. they were great! but i didnt go. haha. ok la. long time didnt update. very busy la. haha. refresh my memory. flashback 3 take 2 take 1.. action!

starting to love playing bowling. im becoming a pro. haha. i know the techniques already. the hook ball. but cant even get spare. haha. im better throwing straight balls. but who cares. practice makes perfect wad. mesti mau angkat tinggi2. haha.

first outdoor breakfast dis year was on wed. actually, reluctantly. cos my mum at break fast alone at home. promise dat will be the last, mum. for dis year la. haha. back to the place.. break fast at geylang banquet. luqman tried eating fried oyster. but not nice. mamat bought fried rice. but too spicy. haha.

i went for re-service on thursday. haha. the n students "finished" sch already. den marking day for the sec 1,2,3s. so, was told to give command for morning assembly. but i du want. haha. rusty already la. forced ambrish to shout. haha. so, volunteered to lead the pledge instead. haha.

ohh ya. watched ganyut. a malay film. damn funny sia. lost my voice due to laughter. serious sia. a lot said its lame and not dat nice. and say i crazy. oi! its very funny la.

ok la. dat shud be all. maybe dats all i can rmb. monday, principal and vp gonna give out the report books one by one. and they're gonna give comments individually. dunno scary or funny. haha. and monday will be, so called, the last day of school. but ite students going back to sch. haha. 'n' students, just wait for ur results la. good luck to you all. expect the unexpected. blast!

[_its coming. fear has started haunting me. is there enough time for me to buck up?_]

2006-10-02T22:45:00.014+08:00

2nd October 2006

sorry for the disorder. dun needa read la. fucking blog.

2006-10-02T22:45:00.013+08:00

2nd October 2006

bismillah. boring day la. only fun part was p.e. played badminton. one part was damn funny sia. me and yazid team up to vs syafiq and alvin. syafiq served first and the shuttlecock reached the third storey sia. haha. imagine ar how high. we were playing at the carpark la. wahlow. shocking sia. dnt played psp for 2 periods. went home. sleep till 6.

ohh ya. i passed my eng la. overall, i got c6. cheyy. actually its nth for me to be proud of. haha. nvm. den passed science after moderation. so, L1R4 got 27 pts. hmm. now n level period. good luck and all the best ar friends. n's easy la. i only studied science. other subjs like revise on the day of exam only. haha. still can passed. luck i think. but o's MUST study.

tmr abt 11 ppl confirmed not coming sch. maybe playing pool in the morning and study after dat. wed den start mock. ohh. changed. prepatory exams. haha. lame sak. ok la. done!

[_who says being single sucks? dats bullshit_]

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2006-09-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

29th September 2006

bismillah. very long time no update. very sian ar. poor results. fussy teachers. cock school. lost wireless network. leading to a hard life.

firstly abt results. important to yazid and muz. i really didnt mean to leave u guys behind. i dunno why i scored higher. hmm. anw, if results carry on like dis, den im going ite la. failed english and maths. die la.

second abt teachers. dis one teacher got alot of free time. dis one teacher likes to find others' fault. who is she? mrs quek meng chee. one more. dis one teacher is scared of students. but dis one teacher stabs in the back. dis one teacher is egoistic. who is she? she is mdm fadhilah. yea. wadever la, teachers.

third abt school. dunno how to say la. just full of shit. cock one. nvm la. endure. 2 more mths and i'll join in the demolishing of bbss. great.

lastly abt wireless network. if dis laptop still fail to received the wireless network, den i'll just use the telephone line connection. nvr had a prob wid dat. thou its slow. it still connects successfully. haiz..

dis is part of my life. a decent life. yet a hard one. but who cares... fuck it. dun wanna go sch already ar. not until actual o's.

[_expect the unexpected. its all only up to oneself to change one's own life_]

2006-09-24T05:20:00.000+08:00

24th September 2006

bismillah. today's the first day of fasting month. alot of challenges. esp for hady mirza. have to fast on the day of finals of singapore idol 2. hmm. all the best for him la. for jon also la. i like him sing too. ok den. long time didnt update.

thursday got 2 soccer matches. first was at sch field. played for 35mins before mrs quek came into the game for a throw in. believe it anot, we bbss students aren't allowed to play at our own field freely. for reasons dat are so insensible. 1st, we were told dat we have to get a permission from a p.e teacher. 2nd, it was during sch hours. 3rd, we have to study for our o's. and lastly, we were rude when talking back to her. anything la ehh. its so grateful to have such a great school.

in the evening was at bb 7-11 field. came late as i was from my cousin's hse at telok belangah. they started before i reached. nth much abt the match. only dat i played badly.

friday night, went to kampong glam for the suria raya carnival. was a last min decision. haha. me and helmi only planned at 5.45. and we met at bb ctrl stn at 6.15. haha. waited for arif for almost an hour until we cant stand the waiting. in the mrt, he called mamat back telling us he was asleep and didnt want to go. hmm.

the place was fun for its opening ceremony celebrations. but not for shopping. geylang was totally a better place for a hari raya bazaar. the hari raya mood and atmosphere weren't there. it was like a one-grade-up pasar malam. i only love the fireworks. a sudden one. damn nice! to me, its even better den the ndp fireworks. so wow! eat 2nd round and waited for hafeez. invited us to go home together in his dad's lorry but didnt update us further. so nice of him. so, planned to walk ard at city hall or slack at esplanade. but it was already 11.30 when we were walking at raffles. scared miss the last train. so, went off lor.

ytd was soccer day again. planned to play at 8 at bb central court. but only woke up at 8.30. called helmi first. he also just abt to leave hse. so, quick bath, get ready, breakfast and went off.
play and play till i... injured. dunno wad happen. same situation as during the match at zhenghua. so painful seyy. helmi and khai ite tamp carried me to the nearby void deck. thanks guys.

eat at rex. den slack at jbs (the shop will be moving soon but the term used will still be carried on). helmi slept upon reaching. but me, mamat, luqman and din were laughing and laughing and laughing and laughing. hahaha. dat mufti made a fool of himself countless times. he used to be very sensitive. couldnt take jokes. but now, he'll get even wilder when we joke ard. infect, he's the wildest now. haha. ohh ya. for non-muslims, mufti is not any kind of names ok. its actually a rank for the person wid the most Islam knowledge in a country. faiz was trying to be one. done!

[_the time when most muslims will TRY to be in their best behaviour has come_]

2006-09-17T00:38:00.001+08:00

17th September 2006

bismillah. morning woke up when helmi called at 1. change of plans. no little man. maybe bcos there were under 16 wid us. haha. played bowling at bb csc wid azli, mamat, helmi and saifuddin.

after dat, they wanted to lepak at a hut la. i dun like to lepak at void deck dat kind of place la. infect, nowadays, i dun really like to lepak. its either soccer, bowling, pool, study, reading at library, movie, blah3... at least we would be doing something more interesting. hmm.

reached home, chat wid fren till 7. pray, went to a feast at my avenue. 8.30, reached home, alot of ppl at my house sia. shocked sia. like no warning. den together went to eat at jurong. took lorry there. can feel the night breeze. shiok!

den my aunt brought up a great topic. abt bgr. haha. keep asking me ques. den my uncle gave tips on how to win a girl's heart. haha. play some games there also. haha. blah3. 11.30 went home. done!

[_must we find love? or will love find us? maybe dat is why ppl said, love is blind_]

2006-09-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

2006-09-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

15 September 2006

bismillah. today nvr go sch. school close.. for 5n2. haha. so woke up late lor. but i havent pay mrs wong for the photos i ordered. so called helmi to pay her first. at noon, met him behind sch to pay and thank him. haha. after dat, accompany helmi home. den went to play pool wid faiz and auggie at west coast. auggie dunno how to go. den me and faiz fool him. haha.

play2 dunno how long. reached home 5.30. nobody at home again. sleep lor. haha. till 7. tmr maybe going out. watch little man. funny show ar. but nc-16. too bad for those below 16 la. hmm. next march i can watch m-18 also ar. haha. nth to say already. but im still bored. wadever la. done!

[_love is crazy. its lovely. but it may hurt_]

2006-09-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

14 September 2006

bismillah. hmm. actually, wanted to update. but cant. cos i sick. haha. sick in my head. haha. hmm. okok. long post dis time. prepare.

start school, start prelim. and cos of prelims, i escaped hair check. so happy sak when teacher say 4e and 5n needa go exams. haha. so.. my hair at the back is still longer den u, muz! haha. pelan2 ar.

tuesday good. go sch later. 9.30 den start. was sc practical dat day. i finished first! haha. dunno why. think others repeat the experiments. hmm. wednesday was maths paper 1.. and history. haha. i improved dis year. cos i studied 1 chapter and didnt sleep during exam. haha.

at night was s'pore idol. was expecting jasmine to leave. simply cos hady and jon are the best. and jasmine cock up dat night. as i expected, too, in the early stages dat hady and jon will be the top 2. whoo. tough one.

today sc physics paper. not as hard as i expected la. after dat, breakfast and soccer time. since the paper end at 9 and we dun have any paper tmr. yea! played for an hour at the sch court. den the fadilah ask us to stop playing and go home to study. so.. go court behind sch la. played for another 3 hrs. its as if exams are over. haha. and infect, we still needa face o's. haiz..

nobody at home. slept till 7. nice sia. den s'pore idol results, and yay! jasmine is out. hady and jon are in the finals. hmm. expecting a great show.

havent been studying dis week. met the socceroos twice. nvr study sia. talk cock. sing song. and.. watch a video clip. damn funny sia! haha. laugh like mad. i'll post it. very funny one. eh. i dunno how to post la. haha. nvm la. done!

[_when you didnt respect others, dun expect others to respect you_]

2006-09-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

6th September 2006

bismillah. hist intensive today. but unintentionally i absent myself from it. haha. overslept la. haiz.. regret not going. haha. my foot ar.

night watched s'pore idol. all of them performed very well. but.. sorry chan.. think paul was abit behind of others. left 4 only. and hady and jon are still in. whee! haha. good luck to them la. done!

[_i suddenly dislike hanging ard wid girls. actually, the word is uncomfortable. sounds gay. but im totally not one!_]

2006-09-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

5th September 2006

bismillah. nth much happening dis hols. very fuck one. ytd went to play pool wid faiz and fahmi at west soast recreation centre. ate at west coast. faiz made stupid jokes while ordering. weird guy. den went to slack wid mamat and luqman. arif, zakie and hafeez came later. lepak only la. its very seldom to see me lepak.

today went to cut hair. i really didnt plan to. i woke up from sleep, grab my hair as i always do, and suddenly decide to get a haircut. change hairstyle again. haha. wanna keep my back hair. den went to ica at lavender wid aizat. i wanted to extend my passport. den walk ard at beach rd. ate hor fun. went home. met faiz at bb ctrl stn to study. plan to meet at 5. den dat e.t let me wait for him for 1hr. 6 den arrived. bastard. he thought i angry. but i wasnt la. im a patient guy leh. haha. the fuck up thing is dat we end up playing soccer. haha. 7.30 i left.

blah3. now blog. needa go sch tmr for history class. 9-4 leh. and i have always hated humans. bloody hell. dunno how to survive. haiz.. fuck la. done!

[_yay. im now back to being myself, mentally. going on wid my own life steadily_]

2006-09-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

2nd September 2006

bismillah. havent update for past few days. nvm la. who cares.. anw, it was cristiano aizat birthday ytd. from mamat's hse, took van to east coast for the celebration.

me, auggie, din and zakie dropped off at area B. bought ice cubes. got a call. they just said dat the bbq pit was at area G. damn far sia. like more den 2km. we walked to area E and hired 4 bikes for overnight cycle.

reached the pit, alot ppl reached. play2, talk2, sing2, dance2, joke2, laugh2!

7pm, me, mamat, rizal, luqman and auggie start the bbq. chicken wings, satay, fried rice and sweet corn served. after eating, photo takings. den alot went home. *hugs* *sobs*

left wid me, mamat, helmi, rizal, luqman, auggie, din, arif and wan. we overnight there. actually more ppl planned to stay. but.. dunno la they all. dun care la. set up tent and hammock. cleaning up. went riding. since there're only 4 bikes, den have to take turns lor. haiya.

den there's a group next to our pit crazy sia. open alot bottles liqour. den 3 of them drunk like siao. 1 fell into a drain. 1 dropped at a bicycle park. and a girl laugh LOUDLY non-stop. like posessed sia. auggie felt like bitting them. haha.

morning, mamat and arif went to return bikes. bought breakfast on the way. the nasi lemak was nice. played soccer, took alot pics and get ready to go home.
only din and wan bath. others still smelly lor. haha. me, helmi, mamat, luqman.. and auggie took cab home. eh? 5 ppl in a cab? ask the taxi driver la. haha.

11.30 reached home, ate maggi, took bath and, of course, sleep! all the way till 7.

hmm. all the fun will now be memories. some takin n's. some takin o's. some still in bbss. just hope we wont lose contact. done!

[_weird ppl drinks 3/4 can and gets drunk. weird ppl gets drunk wid fresh eyes. weird ppl acts drunk_]

2006-08-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

28th August 2006

bismillah. no wax. water is my hope. messy hair all day. last p.e period today. so, played handball together as as whole class. fun la. after dat, no appetite to eat during recess. so, slack at class only la. played psp.

den dnt was fun. so "fun". work on my folio from 1.20 to 4.30. break was only eat bread for 10 mins. wahh. 3 hrs intensive. but still got quite alot. only did special skills, exploded drawing and parts drawing just now.

reached home.. of course.. damn hungry la. ate 2 plates of rice wid chicken, egg and vege. dats for breakfast and lunch. felt so great. now feeling tired and sleepy. think im gonna sleep early tonight. tmr english prelim paper. good luck hamdi. and to the o's students too. done!

[_struggling for a place in polytechnic_]

2006-08-27T13:19:00.000+08:00

27th August 2006

bismillah. havent update for almost 1 week. too busy studying la. hmm. haha. study my foot! dnt folio also havent finish. now, just gonna highlight some fun moments.

monday. ms tan absent. got 2 free periods. slack la. but actually no free periods also slack. haha.

tuesday. played soccer wid mamat ad azli. long time nvr play wid them. the funny thing is i was fasting and mamat's stitches are still not cured. but he will let go of all high balls. haha.

wednesday. play soccer again.

thursday. english oral. not as hard as expected. topic is about shopping. one of my interests. great. haha.

friday. skipped friday prayers to do abit of my dnt. i really couldnt believe it. i was doing exploded drawing. i never thought of doing it. but halfway, lost. now, stuck there. haha. after dat, played soccer.

ohh ya. there's one part i will not forget. so funny sia! the ball went out of play. its our posession. so faiz went to take it la. he's got the ball in his hands securely. walk steadily back to the court. ..still walking.. look up.. and aargh! he suddenly tripped sia! hahaha. clumsy guy. weird ar. think the satellite cant detect him ar. or his connection snap ar. hahaa. laugh till can die sia. and now, im still can laugh. haiz.. faiz.. faiz..

saturday. morning play soccer at yew tee wid wilson, muz, yazid and iqbal. hafiz khan and faris reached so late sia. went home at abt 2. got meet the idols session at west mall but nvr go. tired. friday not enough sleep. so, sleep from 3 to 7 and at night from 10 to 12. after dat cant sleep. and i did folio.

sunday. no plans yet today. think i'll just carry on wid my folio. still got alot to do. tmr last p.e lesson. last school long school day. gonna treasure it. haha. done!

[_why is the same situation happening again? please. you got the wrong idea_]

2006-08-19T22:18:00.001+08:00

19 August 2006

bismillah. went to study wid faiz and felicia. before dat, played pool wid faiz at west mall. a little fun before hardwork la. haha. den studied at blk 106.

totally the wrong place to study today. got some gathering there. alot distraction. den faiz got serious stomachache. haha. while studying, he ran to mc near sch to do his business. den, going home, he and felly went to my hse for his business again. slack at my hse watch spectaculars and faiz said his stomach ache again. haha. and felly asked him to eat panadol. haha.

after they wet home, my dad reached home. haha. dinner, tv, nd now blog. planned to study again tmr. at library. dats all for now la. gonna watch tv agian. done!

[_i need to have fun. i need to feel happy. cos im not feeling really happy dis days_]

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2006-08-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

18 August 2006

bismillah. very tired day. couldnt pay attention and all. so so sleepy. reached home after prayers, slept till 5. got ready and went for farewell party.

sorry to say sec 3s. but the farewell party was dead. shud have plan some games. the performances shud have been rehearsed. and plan the roster. cos after the party, we part ds were the ones cleaning up and all. the special part dis year is only the pizzas. great.

after party, walked to jbs, wid a whole tray of leftovers. nobody want to eat. and ms dianah wanted to throw away. i hate to waste food. so, eat lor. haha. den syafiq also came. his routine really tiring sia. got cca until 9.30. he also slack wid us lor.

wanted to stay longer. but already promise aizat to went off wid him. he was like half-dead la. shud say, all of were half-dead. just reached home. now blog. tired. *SNORES*

[_love is blind? is it true? but i nvr believed_]

2006-08-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

17 August 2006

bismillah. finished my dnt project today. took pics and left school. cos i was gonna watch s'pore idol result show live.

met alot of ppl at bb ctrl station and took 852 to caldecott hill. we were so called special there. cos we got to stand at the stage there. it was fun la.

ohh. i got to shake hands wid everyone.. includin paul. i really dunno why i did so. but did something later on. ehm2. hahaha. but sick results in the end. mathilda is out. weird. thought she'll be the top 3.

after dat, took 157 to mc at bt timah. didnt plan to. but arif suddenly alight, pulling others. just follow lor. eat, slack, go home. just reached. now blog. tired *snores*

[_its the first time we got eye contact and a smile. shows dat i treat you as a friend_]

2006-08-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

16 August 2006

bismillah. today every o's dnt students were rushing to complete their dnt folio. cos the dnt teachers said dat folio have to be handed in by today. but.. i know they were joking. haha. not trying to be rude la. but its the tradition. everytime give deadline, and extend. so, relax la ppl ok? haha.

after school, went home wid ben aw. letchumi always call him aw baby. haha. and me ham didi. i'll call her letch mami. haha. ok la. reached home, bath and sleep.

and i missed s'pore idol! fuck mahn. its rock n roll night. damn. nvm. there's no way im gonna miss the result show tmr. cos i got the tix. watching live. haha. now gonna try to work on my chemistry tys. very hard sia. 'done'

[_think everything will be cool. but relations will not be like the same_]

2006-08-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

15 August 2006

bismillah. didnt go to school today. actually awhile la. to take some measurements. den intensively did my dnt folio wid muz and yazid from 10am till 7pm. but got play2 also la. haha. now i got back my got ideation. i also did operation sequence and material list.

after dat, accompany yazid to west mall. he wanted to buy a bag as a birthday present for his sis. i chose 2 bags at tom and stefanie. and he finally decided on one. den when he went for the wrapping services. and suddenly my stomach pain. wanted to control. 5 mins already, really cannot. so, go toilet, business, met yazid back and dismiss.

reached home, dinner, tv, now blog. anyway, something wrong wid my wireless connection. haiz.. sort ar. done!

[_just wait till teacher's day celebration. will they still want to act? they must be dreaming then_]

2006-08-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

14 August 2006

bismillah. nth happen today also. just blog for fun. normal sch day. but today is the last practical before the prelims. after sch, did folio wid muz, yazid, and wilson.

not going sch tmr. rushing to complete dnt folio. will try to complete tmr wid muz and yazid. ok den. now sleep la. haha. dunno wad to do already. cant do folio at home. just cant. so conserve energy for tmr. *snores*

[_hope you realised your wrongdoings. and hope dat you change_]

2006-08-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

13 August 2006

bismillah. nth happen today. study wid helmi and luqman under my void deck. and i did my dnt folio. went off at six. reached home and sleep. woke up for prayers, dinner, play games and now blog. nth to say la. d0ne!

[_recall on ur own. you did something wrong. don't act blur_]

2006-08-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

12 August 2006

bismillah. today my mum went for outing to m'sia. the main destination was a durian plantation at desaru. i didnt follow as prelims are near.

so, woke up and help dad make breakfast. den cannot sleep back sia. so, called luqman and faiz to ask them come over and slack at my hse. but only luqman came. faiz, helmi, mamat and aizat went to watch the fireworks festival.

watched cheaper by the dozen 2 and the 40-year old virgin. nice movie. after dat, went to mcdonalds near my hse at bb central. surf web, study and play games. till 7.30, went off to buy dinner for my dad.

den eat, watch s'pore idol. the 2nd telecast one la. haha. since i missed the live. now blog. actually today got alot of plans. and i thought today is gonna be a long day. but... changed. haha. so, still fresh. gonna study now. chemistry i think. on organic chem. ok den. blast!

[_you can hate me. cos i hate you too. and i'll let you learn it the hard way_]

2006-08-11T20:08:00.000+08:00

11 August 2006

bismillah. the whole day, really thought today is monday. not much of a problem thou.wads matters more is my mother tongue o's result. it's a disappointing result. but im not surprised. i expected to get c5. and actually got b4. above my expectation. but its still disappointing. gotta re-sit the paper and do much better.

so, played soccer to release stress just now. its been a long time since i played soccer at the basketball court. feels great. but got some problems. some ppl dunno when and where they can act and when not. nvm. we'll see how it goes.

now, just reached home. its the first time i reached home and switched on my com straight. just wanna check something. so, gonna bath, eat, and sleep. gonna be a long day for me tmr. very long day. got alot alot of plans. blast!

[_we can be patient. but our patience has a limit_]

2006-08-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

10 August 2006

bismillah. nothing happen today. woke up at 4pm. bath. went to study wid faiz, auggie and siva at jurong east library. could only solve 3 maths paper2 questions. the killer ones. damn tough sia. so, gotta be ready for the upcoming prelims.

anyway, mother tongue results will be out tmr. i bet i'll get c6. or worse, d7. hmm. gonna sleep now. *snores*

[_dun wanna disappoint those who have helped me_]

2006-08-10T00:26:00.001+08:00

9 August 2006

bismillah. lets go straight to the point. went to watch fireworks just now!! whoo! yeah! yeeha! all the yelling goes. actually, dun feel like going out today since there's alot of nice tv programs on tv. but my dad asked me to go since my frens asked me twice. haha. he told me not to let down my frens and to release stress also. haha. so.. finally go lor.

first to town. slack and eat. took 106 to suntec and walked to nicoll highway. dats where we watched the fireworks from. at first, arif wanted to trick us. while we're happily talking, he turned and shout "fireworks!". but no fireworks and he laugh. but... 3 secs later, the fireworks really started. haha. den pause. dis time, luqman wanted to trick the ppl who were walking back as they thought everything's over. he shouted "whoo! fireworks!". but no fireworks and he laughed until the next sec, the fireworks really appear. haha. funny sia! and the fireworks were so nice.

after dat, walked back to esplanade and took bus 97 to lao pa sat for dinner. on the way there, everyone was quiet as we're so hungry, thirsty, and tired. didnt eat a single thing since lunch leh. but after about an hour restin as we filled our stomach there, we start the rowdy mood back. haha. great. anyway, the foods all nice la.

but zakie gotta be back by 10.30. and we only finished eating at 10.30. so, we have to walked about 200m to raffles mrt as his mum already called alot of times. den slack there. cos arif was short of money to take train. den wait for someone. blah3, reached home at 12. i dunno how zakie is gonna explain to his mum. just hope for the best.

anyway, i've wanted to update. but someting's wrong. still, i managed to save the post. now, i'll post it along. ok den. gotta sleep. been a long day.

8th August 2006

bismillah. just a reminder to all who wanna watch the fireworks, dun go to esplanade. u'll regret. believe me. too tired to continue. *snores*

7th August 2006

today is quite boring. malay, stay in class again. no movie. haiz.. pe, the new teacher absent. plead the fadilah to lend us soccer ball. but she dun let. fuck sia. den ask from mr mazlee. no comments, we got the ball.

ohh ya. starting to hate some ppl in the school. juniors wanna act like seniors. seniors wanna act like head of school. bloody fuck. not abit of respect given. go to school act big. sialan. try dat outside school la. some worse, try to start gangsterism is dis school. hate those ppl. FUCK U ALL LA! damn it!

after school, got practical. after dat, wanted to eat rice at school since my mum was not at home and didnt left any food. but 'out of stock' sia. so didnt eat and went to play soccer. 5mins play, got rugby training. so, went to ncc sea room and find aizat. and there begins our survivor part 2.

me, aizat and nazri took instant noodles from the room. first, thought of asking sally, the stall 2 owner. but her stall was closed. so, went to staff lounge. waited for any teacher to enter. den saw mr lee kp enter the staff room. so, i asked him to fill hot water for us. den we find forks. we searched the malay stalls and saw a basket of forks. den ask an aunty nearby to take for us. but, in the end, our noodles suck mahn. haha.

ok den. wanna sleep. tired already. *snore*

6th August 2006

bismillah. heyy3. miss blogging. long time no blog. haha. just cant believe im saying dis. nvm.

today quite boring. think i start to dislike home. my mum is like so strict now. dunno why. only realise after the june holidays. everytin i do is like wrong to her. and my dad has turned to a heavy smoker. smokes 3 sticks in an hour. and i just cant stand the smell of tobacco. hate it! so spent most of my time in my room when im home.

lucky dat i bought a 'new' story book. 2nd hand one la. at sans bookshop. title is 'express love'. haha. i really dunno why i bought dat. and i really dunno wads in me. dis is like not the real hamdi. hmm. nvm. i'll give myself till sept holidays to return.

i just finished watching e.t. believe it or not, its my first time. though its been shown alot of times on channel 5. haha. the movie was nice. a story about faiz's friend. haha. ending was so great. cos i finally get to see how faiz's transport looks like. cool mahn. haha. okok. enough. relax ar faiz.

ohh ya. my contact lens has all been used up. and i got soccer match on tuseday after ndp celebration against umar's team. haiz.. dunno la. tmr den see how. for now, i wanna check my time table and.. sleep! *snores*

dats all. *snores*

2006-08-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

2006-08-06T22:15:00.001+08:00

6th August 2006

bismillah. heyy3. miss blogging. long time no blog. haha. just cant believe im saying dis. nvm.

today quite boring. think i start to dislike home. my mum is like so strict now. dunno why. only realise after the june holidays. everytin i do is like wrong to her. and my dad has turned to a heavy smoker. smokes 3 sticks in an hour. and i just cant stand the smell of tobacco. hate it! so spent most of my time in my room when im home.

lucky dat i bought a 'new' story book. 2nd hand one la. at sans bookshop. title is 'express love'. haha. i really dunno why i bought dat. and i really dunno wads in me. dis is like not the real hamdi. hmm. nvm. i'll give myself till sept holidays to return.

i just finished watching e.t. believe it or not, its my first time. though its been shown alot of times on channel 5. haha. the movie was nice. a story about faiz's friend. haha. ending was so great. cos i finally get to see how faiz's transport looks like. cool mahn. haha. okok. enough. relax ar faiz.

ohh ya. my contacts has all been used up. and i got soccer match on tuseday after ndp celebration against umar's team. haiz.. dunno la. tmr den see how. for now, i wanna check my time table and.. sleep! *snores*

[_really feel something is wrong wid me. dis is not the real hamdi. beware_]

2006-08-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

2006-08-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

2nd August 2006

bismillah. today school was boring. den surprisingly, just now, half the class didnt do the english assignment while ms tan kk on mc. haha.

after school, played soccer wid sec2 guys. after winning by 5 goals, went to do dnt. dismiss myself at 4.

actually went off early to study wid faiz, helmi, luqman, zak. but i reached home, lie on my bed and sleep. haha. tired mah.

woke up for s'pore idol. damn! got aini's face sia! happily hugging rahimah in the vt. wahlow. shocked sia. and i think jasmine will be eliminated dis round. wadever it is, hady and jonathan will go all the way. ok la. gonna sleep. *snores*

[_ok. dis is it. im clearing you off my mind. its not as hard as i expected_]

2006-08-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

1st August 2006

bismillah. its august already. dis point of time, slacking graduating students gotta received the wake up call already. think i have. slowly catching up. slow and steady.

just now went home straight. which means, skipping the social studies workshop. haha. anw, dun think i'll consider comb humans for my L1R4. i'll just aim 20 points for my L1R4.

played pool wid faiz at bt timah just now. after dat, ate murtabak and drank tea at al-azhar. the tea damn nice but not the murtabak. den went to study wid helmi, luqman, arif and zakie.
8pm went home. dinner wid parents, tv , and now blog. gonna sleep. feeling tired. *snores*

[_will i still see you? i hate to see you. but somehow, i suddenly start to miss you_]

2006-07-31T21:49:00.000+08:00

31st July 2006

bismillah. today school was relaxing. but ms mastuty couldnt continue the movie. so we did our own work for 2 periods. chemistry got new teacher. ms tan. she's quite good for a first timer. at least i can understand something.pe also got new teacher. ms teng. pronounced lydat. she's ok also. let us play our own games.

after school got chem practical test under mdm yaw. but think i'll fail. den went home straight. thought wanna go bukit timah wid faiz. play pool and buy somethin. den last min faiz cant go. haiz.. den helmi called to study together. but.. was too tired. so, sleep till 7pm. blah3. now blog. gonna sleep early today. damn tired. maybe i'll sleep now. so, till here for today. blast!

[_i just don't know whether to look and smile or to ignore and walk away_]

2006-07-30T22:26:00.000+08:00

30th July 2006

bismillah. ended up sleeping at 3am. today woke up at 1. damn tired la. haiz.. bath, ate lunch and spring cleaning. i clean up the whole of my room. my wadrobe, change my bedsheet, vacuum every corners and wipe the fans.

after dat, sleep. till 4.30, faiz called. asked to study together. studied at bb there wid faiz, helmi, luqman and zakie. practice chem on organic chemistry. quite simple la. or maybe i havent reached the tough part yet.

den went to wm wid helmi and faiz. waste 30mins there. den reached home, dinner, now blog. tired.. tired.. tired. *snores*

[_trying to catch up. on my own. in class? hmm. still a monkey. haiz_]

2006-07-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

29th July 2006

bismillah. long day today. leadin to a long post. today met luqman, aizat and nazri and went to visit mamat at.. his grandmum hse. haha. he's discharged in the morning. he's still not dat stable. symphatise him. gotta go thru such hard life. haiz..

after dat went to bugis village and shop. first, i bought a pouch. den luqman bought 1 t-shirt, i cargo pants, and 1 polo-t. den i bought 2 shirts. and aizat bought a watch. after dat meet faiz and yishu. we den walked to city hall for the fireworks.

bought 2 murtabak and 2 bottles drink. went to esplanade roof-top. on the way there, took alot of pics. faiz brought his new digi camera. crazy sia. got us become fishermen, tourists and druggies. haha.

actually we went to esplanade for the fireworks. but we reached threre ate murtabak. haha. like bangla workers sia. den while eating, the fireworks started. but... a building block our clear view. fuck sia. damn it. so, after eating, played cards, took pictures and went off.

walked to merlion there. took more pictures. haha. den walked all the way to raffles place to take mrt home. today we really like survivor sia. walked and walked. ate murtabak at esplanade roof-top without plates, fork, spoon and water. slack2.

me and luqman dragged ourselves home after dat. we were like drunk ppl. but, overall, today was fun la. was enjoying myself. reached home, bath, supper, and now blog. damn tired. *yawns* so.. gonna sleep la. *snores*

[_love and treasure the music. forget and leave the scene. take my advice_]

2006-07-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

28th July 2006

bismillah. long post dis time. today got photo taking. so got alot of free time as our teachers are always called up for the shots. den came to our part, we were like excited sia. haha. last year mah. the informal part was the best. the guys became gays. haha. den the anna pulled my hair. crazy girl.

after school, ate nasi briyani wid egg. after dat, played soccer at basketball court wid classmates. actually wanted go for prayers. but fad cant as he got aoral. so didnt go. haiz.. next week must go. has missed it for 2weeks.

den got soccer match at the school field. after the match, got fight sia. at first, talk2. so i bochap and carry on playing until... i saw augustine punched fahmi. shocked sia. den i ran to them. break the crowd and settle things peacefully. whoo! and afew ppl came to thank me. im proud. haha.

den went to mcdonald's to rest awhile. suddenly, someone tap me on my back. the girl stood in front of me and said "hamdi!". and i replied, "farhana!" haha. long tme didnt see her. talk2, trade
numbers and she left. miss her. been my classmate for 4 years.

den walked home wid arif. blah3. now blog. damn tired sia. tmr going to visit mamat at nuh wid luqman. den after dat, shopping. whee! i planned to buy a small pouch, long pants, t-shirt and boxers. but sure to buy alot other things later. haha. ok la. gonna rest. watch tv. blast!

[_are we still friends? you dun behave like we are. but nvm. maybe your ignorance will help to shut your friend's mouth_]

2006-07-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

7 months gone
passed without me knowing
time really does fly
flying free without wings.

The O's getting near
the prelims nearer
mother tongue is over
but where is the fear?

Teachers getting mad
so are mum and dad
what kind of results will i get
as im so not prepared.

When can i start?
how do i start?
cos the willingness to study in my heart
is just weak and hard.

sincerely written by mohammad hamdi.

2006-07-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

26th July 2006

bismillah. today's an easy day. school ended at 1.05. ate 3 crust hotdog and went to basketball court behind sch. since there's no ball to play, luqman took out poker cards. just nice 4 ppl, me, aizat, fad and luqman played daidee and bluff. den helmi they all came. but anw, nth to do. so..
went home. waited for bus wid aizat and fad.

reached home, sleep, woke up for s'pore idol and dinner. guess nurul will be next to get eliminated. nvm. tmr den see. im gonna sleep late as im feeling fresh now. ok den. gonna find something to do. watch tv ar. blast!

[_some ppl have no ideas wad they're doing. and they'll pay for the wrong doings_]

2006-07-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

24th July 2006

bismillah. school sucks la today. no pe. the sushi nvr come. den mdm yaw took over. so, chem 3 periods. den, recess, played soccer. ben ng tripped my leg and ouch! i fell landing on my chest and chin. damn pain sia! keep bleeding. like free flow. so, cant focus on anything i did. but, after school, still can play soccer. haha. play relax la. hardly got any contacts. haha.

ytd ate alot durians. today ate "bubur kacang" wid durians. dunno how to translate. is it "nut porridge"? hmm. nvm. den watch miss universe. my mum bet paraguay and mexico. my dad bet puerto rico and switzerland. i bet japan only. haha. final, japan and puerto rico. but my dad won the bet. miss puerto rico won. haiz.. but nvm. didnt lose anything. just bet for fun. haha.

now nth to do already. write poem la. haha. nice sia write poem. thou my poem is full of shit. its fun when u're bored. and guess im gonna sleep early today. since ytd not enough sleep. ok den. blast!

(posted time adjusted)

[_some ppl just dun have manners. we can keep quiet and ignore. but are they gonna bring dis attitude to future? i hope not_]

2006-07-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

bismillah. gonna make it short. just came back from m'sia. went to visit my grandmum. den just now, jalan2 at a durian plantation at pontian. whoo. ate alot durians. i like! my favourite. durians. and watermelons. but couldnt find watermelon plantation. haha.

ok la. tmr got school. havent sleep from 9 in the morning. so, now, gonna sleep la. *snores*

(posted time is wrong)

[_ohh. guess your friends received the msg. they've faced the truth. so thankful_]

2006-07-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

bismillah. today celebrate racial harmony. wore a punjabi outfit. haha. stylo ar. and frens all look nice wid ethnic costumes. but.. there wasnt any performances. fuck mahn. i only brought one blank book and pencil case. luckily my teachers dun needa use any books.
haiz..

after school, WANTED to go for prayers. walk wid fad. until fad say he's thirsty. and i replied dat im damn hungry. played chapteh during recess and didnt eat. so, we stop at a coffeeshop and blah3..

after dat walked back to school. slack wid helmi they all. den they plan to play soccer. but i declined and planned to bowl. den auggie declined and planned to play pool. haha. so, went to bb csc and play for 1hr plus. after dat, went to jbs there, skill2 wid ball while resting.

ohh ya. just now, i received 2 calls. prank i guess. if they really are, fuck them ar. bloody hell. luqman said maybe the girls wanna make frens. but i always give ppl the wrong number if they asked from me for it. haiz.. dun care la. dunno wad to say already. blast!

(the posted time is wrong)

[_alot friends have started to support and motivate me. but dats not enough. infect, dat dun really work_]

2006-07-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

bismillah. there's something wrong wid my blog ytd. so, couldnt update. but i saved dis. so now can update. haha.

wednesday, 19/07/2006

"bismillah. today very tired ar. and im feeling sick. haiz.. den me, muz and ben aw skipped cme and rest. but was caught. fuck mahn. haiz.. but mrs wong spared us once. thanks ar mrs wong. and sorry. wont do it again.

after school got audition. they still wanna play 'here without you'. already said we cant play the song yet. now see wad happened. everything cock up. haiz.. anw, i dun mind not performing. but IF our band go thru to the next round, i'll slap the judges face. stupid. drunk or wad?

6pm reached home, bath, eat some kuih and sleep. damn tired la. only woke up to watch s'pore idol just now. hady mirza sang maria maria. nice. just wait for the result tmr. now, gonna sleep. and i may not be going school tmr. will decide wid muz later. *snores* "

for today, nothing much for me to say. just reached home from west mall. accompanied luqman buy sandals. tmr is racial harmony day. and i can open a stall selling malay traditional costumes. haha. i gave out 5 sets to frens. haha. and i'll be wearing a punjabi costume. whee. haha. anw, my blog skin has bee changed. thanks to faiz. haha. got tagboard already. haha. thanks faiz. i owe you. ok la. now sleep. quite a tired day today. *snores*

(the posted time is wrong)

[_7mths passed, i kept asking myself, "why i go to school?" but i still havent found the answer_]

2006-07-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

bismillah. gonna make it short for today. today is relaxing at sch. syafiq and yazid reported sick and went home. and i was very active and restless. haha. after school, accompany muz and siti eat at canteen. i was already full den. den found out dat today is the audition. den zakie plead to ms koe to postpone to tmr. cos we havent been jamming for 7 mths. haha.

so, just now went jamming. actually, thought of playing 'here without you'. we paid for 1hr but only decided to change to 'streets of uptown' and practice on it in last 5mins. haiz.. dun care la. walk home wid luqman, fahmi, zakie and arif, helmi, yishu. den ate golden pillow for dinner. mutton curry bun. average la. not much a difference from mum's cooking. now blog. bored ar. ok la. gotta watch 'sembilu'. after dat sleep. blast!

[_starting to dislike you and your friends. causing a disturbance to my life_]

2006-07-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

bismillah. today sch was ok. after sch, went to eat at pizza hut at bb central wid yazid, syafiq and ben aw. i ate chicken ole baked rice. nice. den syafiq got sore throat. so, he drank our plain water and put his pepsi aside. and the yazid add alot cheese on it.. and drink! eww. pepsi wid cheese. disgusting sia. den went to west mall to buy some side servings as dessert. haha. i couldnt resist the octopus ball. so i lent yazid's $2 and bought a packet. thanks ar yazid. tmr i pay u back.

after dat walked to school for o level mt listening compre. gotta sit at the back of the class sia. haiz.. bored. think the paper was abit tough. so confusing. the options are so similar. but nvm. its over. after dat, walked home, alone. today no fren to walk wid. but nvm. reached home, bath, eat, and now blog.

gotta sleep now. tired. sleepy. *yawns* tmr got social study workshop after school. and frens said audition for teachers day performance is tmr. but dun feel like playing. havent been jaming for like 7 mths. den gonna play the song i havent tried. haiz.. *snores*

[_im back to being lazy and slacking_]

2006-07-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

bismillah. today study group cancelled. cos muz cant make it. but good la. cos ytd i couldnt sleep. dunno why. surf web, chat, listen songs, games till 3am. so, woke up late la. 11 plus ar. bath, breakfast, and get ready for suresh's surprise bday party.

met others at gombak mrt at 2. walked to suresh's house. he was bathing. den we entered quietly. and when he came out of his room, of course, surprised! haha. but he controlled his feelings. one thing i love most about the party is the food. thou it arrived late due to some mistakes, it was so delicious! guess i left wid an extra 5kg mass. the fillet wid tartar sauce the best. ooh... damn nice. den got durian tarts in 2nd. and 3rd will be the pineapple fried rice.

after dat, took bus 985 to bukit timah. went to play pool at century pool. won everybody. won ben koh twice. haha. whoo! but lost to faiz and saifuddin once. after dat took bus 852 home. bath, eat, and now blog. tired. got 'o' level mt listening compre tmr. so, gonna sleep now. *snores*

[_wad will happen when 2 friends fall for the same girl? is it better being single and alone in dat situation? i wonder_]

2006-07-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

bismillah. today woke up 11am. bath, ate maggi, drink milo, went online to send my fren a song, and sleep again! haha. woke up at 3.30. helmi called to play soccer. met them at 4.30 at basketball court behind school. but got ppl play basketball sia. they play so long. nvr give us chance. fuck mahn. but we just play. haha. hit them alot of times. and they tried to be patient. pity them la. so we stop. haha. den we just juggle and play the ball around. ohh ya. den i tried wearing helmi's street soccer boots. helmi asked me to shoot cos he say the shoe is good for shooting. so i shoot! .. and the ball hit yishu's back. *ouch* i can imagine the pain when i see his body jerk. sorry yishu. haha.

after dat, went to mcdonalds near school. drink water, take air-con, rest, talk cock. den when leaving the place, i left my face towel on the chair and luqman took it for me. he felt so proud at first. den i realise dat he's left his bag behind and told him so. he suddenly panicked and turned back. haha. after dat walked home wid faiz.

reached home, bath, pray, eat, and watch a malay debate competition. temasek jc won. now bored.. so blog. but guess i gonna sleep. gonna wake up early tmr. pengs want to start a study group - me, muz, pengs and jiang. yazid couldnt make it. and tmr is suresh's bday party. not sure if im going. cos the celebraters (is there such word?) gonna meet at gombak ctrl station at 1.30. my study group is from 10-1. so how? tmr den see la. now, sleep. *snores*

2006-07-14T23:28:00.001+08:00

bismillah. a few days nvr blog.. like.. start to miss my blog. haha. quite nice ar blogging. but last few days was damn tired. didnt even have the time to switch on my com. but nvm. nth much happen. today was a very long day for me.

during recess, talk2 wid aisyah for the whole period. long time nvr talk2 wid her. den after sch, ate 1 plate of rice in school. missed my prayers. cos i really need to sleep. conserve energy. slept for abt 1hr in class. den went to meet frens for soccer match. today 5na against 4exp. was ok la. no argue. no fights. won in 4-2 penalty shoot out after late goal by them making score to tie at 2-2. only danny didnt score for our team. but nvm. match ended 5. after dat, rush home without changing. paisey sia. i plan meet at 5.50 at bb ctrl station. but reached at 6. only 10mins late. pengs worse. 30mins late. haiz..

took bus 176 to gabriel's condo for the bbq. its wilson's birthday party la. grilled bbq chicken, hotdog, crabstick, and lastly, the best, roti prata. haha. the best sia. at first auggie and suresh were busy in the "kitchen". den me and ben aw team up to take over. and our prata sells fast leh. haha. den caryl's prata become rojak. haha. damn funny sia. was having a really great time there. thanks everyone for the great time together - guys - wilson, auggie, jiang, ben aw, ben koh, helmi, mamat, luqman, zakie, yishu, siva, suresh, faiz, aizat, iqbal, muz, pengs, yazid, shawn and gang, gabriel - girls- joey, michelle, caryl, ying, shao, ying hui, stacy and some others.

after dat, share money and took cab wid ben aw. too tired already la. infect, i gotta bring home some leftovers. now, blogging. miss it la. haha. weird. but nvm. ok la. gotta take off my contacts and sleep. damn tired. blast!

[_thanks for giving me motivation. but the real inspiration i need is still absent_]

2006-07-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

2006-07-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

bismillah. today woke up late sia. abt 6.40. damn tired la. den ytd didnt update. slept while watching tv. haha.

italy are the world cup champion! sorry yazid. but i think italy deserve to win the match. france wasnt really working well together. but nvm. its over.
today got alot of periods in school. den the mdm yaw really sucks mahn. come in, shout and scold. crazy girl. the rest was ok. after school got social study workshop. after dat went to do my dnt. almost done la. left 10%. after dat, accompany luqman cut hair. he dunno wad to say. therefore, i gotta say for him. marlet. v-slope. haha. nice ar his hair now.
today my mum really touched me. as in feelings. cos ytd i said i missed my late granny's cooking. especially the baked squid. but its troublesome to prepare dat dish. so i said nvm. but today, mum served those saying she dun want me to "kempunan". dunno how to translate la. sorry non-malays. yaa.
ok la. gonna sleep already. tired. *snores*
[_really not in good mood these few days. dun try to disturb me_]

2006-07-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

bismillah. today woke up at late. tired la. ytd didnt sleep at all. waited for the match at 3am. and portugal lost. haiz.. den just now missed suria segar. gonna missed it tonight also. cos.. im gonna sleep after blog. conserve energy for tmr lor. got world cup final match. i'll go for italy. den tmr after sch got chemistry practical. gonna be a long day tmr.

today relaxing la. sunday mah. my parents waited for me to wake up to eat lunch together. but they lost patience when im still asleep at 2pm. haha. they woke me up la. i bath, eat, watch tv all the way till 6. den i rmb i havent done my hmwk. do.. do.. do.. till 7.30. pray. ate dinner. den now blog. ok la. gonna sleep already. *snores*

ohh ya. hafiz khan organise a gig today. and yilin's band is performing. sorry guys for not coming. and all the best. may the gig be successful.

[_im doing it. im slowly doing it. and i hope i'll continue doing it_]

2006-07-09T20:32:00.001+08:00

2006-07-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

2006-07-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

bismillah. today went for cip. left eye still painful. so wear specs. den supposed to collect the tins at 1.30. but we only reach jurong east at 2.30. haha. took bus no.66 wid muz and yazid. the staff there said we have to get the tins 3/4 full or our cip hours will be affected. full of shit. blah3. did 15mins of legal begging. and... went to queensway! haha. survey jersey for class. we choose yellow top and blue shorts. like brazil sia. haha. nvm la. we return back to jurong east at about 5. den continue begging. 5.30 return the tins.

after dat dunno wad to do. sat there for like 15mins refreshing our eyes. haha. until i asked them to go bkt btk csc. walked around the place. damn fun sia. we went into a tunnel. like quite scary sia. walk.. walk.. walk.. and suddenly, there's a staircase which led to.. nowhere. just a wall. dead end! silence and staring for 3secs and.. i SHOUT and run! haha. and both of them followed. while running, yazid stepped on my flip flop. pecah sak. den he fixed back. thanks ar, zid. finally, played bowling. haha. 1 round of bowl, walked at west mall, den went home. eat, watch tv and now blog. ok la. wanna sleep. tired. den later wanna watch portugal vs germany. who'll win? i dunno. we'll see. *snores*

[_in just a blink, things change. people change. it feels like everything changed. but, i dun feel my life changed_]

2006-07-07T17:47:00.001+08:00

bismillah. gonna make it short today. left eye damn painful. dunno why. something entered and suddenly very red. anw.. nth much happen today. ok.

in the morning, everybody commented on arif's new hairstyle. he was so proud until auggie say his hair suck cock. haha. den we adjust his hair. haiz.. bek.. bek (we always call him by his nick, bekal or bek).

sch was ok la. pengs taught me history after i said i feel like dropping comb humans. haha. a very good fren. sit next to me in class and crapp together. haha. but he teach quite good la. sch end at 12. went for friday prayers wid muz. and walk home wid yazid, firdaus and khalil.

ohh yaa. some of my class mates fuck sia. unlike last year when we were so close and united. i thought nothing can break us apart but now.. ok. story goes, a group make a jersey for the close frens only. others dun need to. we already said wanna make jersey for the whole class. fuck them la. this year, classmates change already. some positively. which is good la. but some.. haizz.. sad ar. last year already, they like dis. they shud be more united since dis will be our last year together. fuck mahn.

eh? did i say i wanna make it short? haha. see la. now so long already. haha. nvm la. anw, only 2 ppl can view my stupid blog. haha. ok la. wanna sleep la. *snores*

[_its coming back. my mood to study is building up, slowly. it'll be fully back by next week_]

2006-07-07T17:47:00.000+08:00

bismillah. gonna make it short today. left eye damn painful. dunno why. something entered and suddenly very red. anw.. nth much happen today. ok.

in the morning, everybody commented on arif's new hairstyle. he was so proud until auggie say his hair suck cock. haha. den we adjust his hair. haiz.. bek.. bek (we always call him by his nick, bekal or bek).

sch was ok la. pengs taught me history after i said i feel like dropping comb humans. haha. he teach quite good la. and he planned we make a study group. every sunday study together. cant wait. sch end at 12. went for friday prayers wid muz. and walk back wid yazid, firdaus and khalil.

ohh yaa. some of my class mates fuck sia. unlike last year when we were so close and united. i thought nothing can break us apart but now.. ok. story goes, a group make a jersey for the close frens only. others dun need to. we already said wanna make jersey for the whole class. fuck them la. this year, classmates change already. some positively. which is good la. but some.. haizz.. sad ar. last year already, they like dis. they shud be more united since dis will be our last year together. fuck mahn.

eh? did i say i wanna make it short? haha. see la. now so long already. haha. nvm la. wanna sleep la. *snores*

[_its coming back. my mood to study is building up, slowly. it'll be fully back by next week_]

2006-07-06T20:40:00.000+08:00

bismillah. almost die today. 2 maths period, 2 physics period, 2 chemistry period, 2 english period. all the killer. social studies was the best today. mr danny cha rocks. he's really understanding. he cancelled the lecture he planned for today. cos he knows everyone of us will knockout halfway. watch france vs portugal la. but portugal lost. damn. think they shud win. nvm. final, italy meet france lorh. i'll go for italy. i've faith in them after watching them beat germany in the semi final.

ohh ya. just now, arif get his hair cut for the first time... at the barber. haha. usually his dad cut for him. his dad cut always cut anyhow. den he fed up and went to the barber. me, mamat, auggie and din accompanied him. at first, he said wrongly to the barber until i voice out. first timer mah. haha. nice la his hair now. V-tail. mohawk. but, his hair cant stand. haha.

ok la. tmr got physics test. gotta do at least abit of revision. o's coming nearer. tmr update again.

[_she's my friend. not more den dat. you're also my friend. we're all friends. be happy for dat_]

2006-07-05T20:31:00.000+08:00

bismillah. wanted to update ytd. but.. i couldnt even sit at my study table. damn tired la. dun feel like going to sch tmr. like no use. go sch.. cant study also. too tired wad. waste time. but hope my studying mood will be back after world cup fever. okok.

nth much happened ytd. and i escaped from my undone homework. woohoo. hand in my english and maths hw today as i promise my teacher. went through chemistry hw as a class. and physics teacher didnt ask hw. haha. after sch got social study workshop. 2.30- 4. den go jbs. slack wid saifuddin, the school sea commando! haha. he funny sia. but think he's changed. positively la. which is good. at first, the whole group of us, auggie, yishu, helmi, luqman, arif, mamat and din played soccer. skill2. after dat the funny part. we discussed abt how arif can changed himself in appearence, life and character. go home.. sleep! *snores*

today was ok la. but the announcer find fault ar. say my class 3n2. haha. only study maths today. when i needa sit on the floor at the back of the class. for not drawing 2 tangents on my graphs. haha. eh. but quite nice leh sit on the floor. dats why i sat for 1 period even thou i only took 10 mins to complete my incomplete work. like relaxing. can lie down also. other period is just do our own things. after dat, got survey. among the first to come, last to leave. haha. cos of the volunteer in charge la. she's so so so sweet. and so so so cute. and hot. good. my girl wannabe *hakpui*. im gonna dream of her tonight. haha. ok la. gotta sleep. portugal vs france later. i think portugal will win. 2-1. *snores*

[_i need inspiration. and motivation. i really need them_]

2006-07-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

bismillah. ok. as i said, will update again today. just now went out wid faiz, luqman, mamat, azli, rizal and helmi. we ended up watching superman cos luqman is still under-aged. haha. scary movie 4 is for those 16years and above. haha. relek ar man. watched at new cathay. it was such a huge theatre. like so grand. red seat. red curtain. and best, red carpet. show start at 3.45 and ended at 6.30. quite long ar. to me, it was ok la. nice. i rate it 3.5/5 star. but mamat and luqman like wasted their money. they weren't really watching the show. just joking ard. after the show, luqman asked us, "wad happened ar?" haha. crazy guy.

after dat walked to lucky plaza to eat. reached at 7.30. blah3. 8.30 played pool. we booked 2 tables and played for an hour. again, luqman was left out. cos... u needa be at least 16years to play. haha. 9.30. went to far east plaza. mamat went to meet his fren. den we bought light snacks at old chang kee and 7-11. after dat, went home straight. bath, eat again, and now blog. tired. havent done all my homework. english, maths, chemistry, physics. haiz.. ok la. gonna sleep already. *snores*

[_sometimes i think, how am i gonna live my life? when, where, how will it end?_]

2006-07-03T00:05:00.000+08:00

bismillah. no time for me to update for the last 2 days. but nothing much happened. just dat, i got 18 hrs of sleep. so nice. and 8 hrs of sleeping wid contacts on. was too tired and sleepy la. lie down and fell asleep. haha. ok. my updates.

saturday, 1.7.2006.
supposed to meet at 8.30 for a soccer match. but i woke up at 8.30. haha. luckily meet at bb ctrl stn. very near my hse. i was really rushing. reach there at 8.50 and there's one more guy havent come. haha. he reach at 9. ubai.. ubai. den went to match venue which supposed to be at sp. we waited for oponents for like 45mins. to cut it short, we were not allowed to play at sp and have to play at a field at commonwealth. first half, we play 4-1-4-1 and i played defensive midfield. played very swiftly gaining posession. and hairuzee scored. funny goal which we didnt expect. 2nd half, we play 4-4-2 and i played centre midfield wid syamil. after a few mins, i scored a goal. a cross from khai got thru 2 players and bonce in front of me. i volley the ball home. 2-0. den helmi scored. one-to- one wid goalie situation. 3-0. den faiz scored. forgot how. 4-0. daniel wanted to score. and change of formations and positions. played 4-5-1. den 5-3-2. den 4-3-3. haha. and finally, we won! syafiq hold a clean sheet. went home straight after dat. cos got wedding invitation.

blah3. 11pm. england vs portugal. the 2 teams i support in the world cup. but i would love to see england win. but, fuck! they lost in penalty shootout. lampard, gerrard and carragher missed. end of day.

sunday, 2.7.2006
very boring day. woke up at 1. bath, pray, eat, SLEEP! haha. woke up at 5. pray, eat, surf web. till 7. pray, eat, tv, and sleep at 9.30. haha. till 12.30. now cant sleep. haha. blogging, chatting, supper.

today is youth day. holiday. gonna watch movie. whee. shud be watching scary movie 4. ok la. later at night i update again. *slurp* *snores*

[_life has its ups and downs. but it looks to be the same for me. a hard life_]

2006-06-30T22:18:00.000+08:00

bismillah. as usual, very tired day. actually, is bcos of world cup fever la. ok. today abit special la. went to sch in ncc uniform. no needa wear tie. haha. den led the national and ncc pledge. nervous seyy. den voice shaky. den some ppl say i was laughing. den some still say i wasnt doing it seriously. eh. fuck u all la. u all try doing it la. to liyana, im very sorry. u know, i know. so sorry. after siva fall the ncc cadets out, we assemble outside the ncc rooms. slack there, waste time. haha. but the bloody quek king kong came and call us to go off in 5 mins.

after recess is malay period. but since ms mastuty wouldn't go to class, den i decided dat we go home. and the others agreed. i was joking actually. but nvm. me, yazid, muz, fuad, liza, nana, siti and yati went home after bell for recess. haha. get change to sch uniform, and went for o level mt oral. we were late for 15mins. but the examiner came later. so.. escaped. haha. the topic was about television shows. it was quite easy la. but still, i was nervous. haiz..

after dat slack at sch. look at the ncc training. its like shit. full of shit! dun wanna say anymore. after dat, slack at mcdonalds awhile and den walk home wid auggie. reach home, and sleep. until now. haha. tired ar. ok la. first quarter final match gonna start. argentina vs germany. a must watch match. den after dat, meeting helmi, auggie, luqman and yishu. gonna watch italy vs ukraine at big screen jurong east entertainment centre at 3am together. so.. *gone*

[_living day by day with no direction_]

2006-06-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

bismillah. im holy. haha. very very verytired today. dunno why. dis few days. since sch re-open. haiz.. first time i slept in class while teacher is teaching. i usually either do my own things or scribble if no mood to study or sleepy. actually, i didnt want to. i hate it. like no respect to the teacher or presenter . but.. my head just went down and eyes closed.. for 30 mins. and my frens said the teeacher didnt notice. haha. cos i sit somewhere at the corner. den i went home quite early today and sleep for 3 hrs. woke up for s'pore idol, eat, and blog now. was having some prob just now.

tmr, all ncc members will be wearing ncc uniform to sch. will be my last time. gotta treasure it. sounds enthu ar. haha. and i gotta lead the pledge tmr. quite nervous. skali say wrong ar. paisey. den after sch, gotta go home and change. cos got o level mt oral. wahh. like so fast ar. fuck mahn. haiz.. ok la. wanna sleep sumore. damn tired and sleepy ar. *yawns*

[_living a hard life. really struggling_]

2006-06-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

bismillah. today's a very tired day. very very tired. actually, didnt do much thing. but, i was tired even before the 1st period. haiz... not much sleep la. sleep for 7 hrs in 2 days. mahn.

but after sch, play soccer awhile. haha. for like 20mins only la. after dat go home. meet luqman at west mall at 5. he came late. gotta wait for him for like 5 mins. haha. we get our hair cut. but his hair like still the same. cos the hair dresser was like rushing and he didnt voice out. stupid. might as well dun cut. haha. i got my hair layered and a v-slope. den luqman went to buy his school shoes at bata. after dat, went to meet faiz at jurong east interchange. we went to study at library. den after study, saw izyan, the ex- student from bbss. talked to her awhile and went take a stroll at entertainment centre. after dat took mrt home wid luqman. den the nice part. a man was rushing for the train. and he dropped his ez- link card. luqman picked it up and confused wid another man. until i told him dat the actual owner has went up the escalator. somehow, we manage to return the card. and the man laugh out happily before he thank us. retarded guy. ok den. gotta sleep. i wanna sleep longer tonight. so.. *snores*

[_when will u get the point dat im only frens wid her. am i supposed to ignore her to get dat in ur head? grow up, little girls_]

2006-06-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

bismillah. heyy. updating my bloody blog for the 2nd time seyy. but who's gonna view and read my blog?? NOBODY. cos... i've no links. haha. and why havent i got any links? cos... nobody knows about me creating a stupid blog. haha. and why nobody knows about it? cos.. i dun want anybody to. haha. but.. if any of you are reading this, den you have been wasting time. dun read la. its a waste of time. actually, im wasting my time too by updating. haha. nvm la. just to release some droplets of truth. haha.

ok. today sch was ok la. much to our surprise, the o's students still needa go for mt lesson. and practice oral and listening compre. sounds stupid. but.. nvm. endure. pe was no diff actually. just change of teacher. now is fadhli. he's ok la. after sch, went to chemistry remedial and do practical. short of time. and i ended up leaving blankS. den go home straight. eat, sleep, pray and went to study wid muz. under a void deck. about 2 hrs and dismiss. reach home. and now blog. bored mah. haha. ok la. gonna sleep la. tired. haiz...

[_can you girls cut the crapp? irritating la. there's a limit la. i just treat her as a fren ok_]

2006-06-24T18:22:00.000+08:00

bismillah. first and for most, thanks to God dat im a blogger now. its fated. i've always hated blogs. it was nonsense. waste of time. emo. overall, full of shit. but... could say those no more. aargh.. im so bored. which led me to a blog account. im full of shit. nvm. anw.. for now, i plan not to have any links. haha. cos.. my blogspot is new and i've nothing really nice to see. so.. for now, im on my own. lalala. haha. ohh. the time i've been waiting. world cup match. it'll be the first knockout match. germany vs sweden. who'll win? i dunno. so.. gotta watch. blast!

[_nothing inspires me to study now. she left after 'n' levels last year_]